Carry that Weight - A Review

It’s not a snap freeze, the cold crept in like a slow burn. Winter is taking the day from us.

And it’s fine.

My breath catches in the air and stays a second before the city winds take it from me. I turn my back to the icy breeze and let out one long sigh. At least it’s Wednesday.

My time lately has been split between periods of extreme activity and crushing boredom. At work, I’m either running between offices and classrooms or sitting in the nurse’s office, waiting to escort a student who is rendered silent by the nurse’s fanatical ramblings.

I’ve certainly found a flow, but much like the wind it is incredibly sporadic. Bursts of high speed met with lulls of comfortable nothingness. I’m just getting used to the sudden jolts of the train, but not the sudden jolts of life as a teacher.

That being said, it is something I know I will become accustomed to. And when it ends, I’ll probably long for it.

For now though, this wild ride’s inpredictability is causing undue anxiety. I am frustrated by it, but at the same time, the effort of it all gives me a sort of… energy. An energy to keep working so that I can be in control of my schedule and eventually find the balance I’m looking for.

If that sounds a bit too holistic for my usual tastes, then congrats, you know me well. And you should be very very worried.

Overall, I’m doing well. I’m just carrying the needless weights that I usually carry, and then some. This has always been my default state, and something I am ultimately fine with.

Anyway. This week and the last have been good to me. Aside from idle time, being busy is generally nice.

Well. My idle time is over now. Back to work.

Have a great rest of your week.