On Burnout - A Review

Been a while, let’s chat.

I’ve gotten myself into my fair share of pickles throughout my relatively short life.

I’ve been caught between bosses, treated like garbage by the people I admire most, and most notably, I burned myself out of a lot of the things that I love(d).

Part of it is that moderation has always been hard for me. I’m rarely one to take things slow, despite thinking myself cautious. Because of that, I end up losing any chance of having something real for a tangible amount of time.

The other part of it is because I’m just self-destructive. Instead of using free time to do what I enjoy, like: writing, reading, or playing video games, I instead use it to stress and obsess.

So, I haven’t written for a week.

And there’s no real excuse other than that I haven’t felt motivated enough when I had the time. That’s not a conscious choice. It’s just how the chips happen to be falling.

Worst part is, I don’t know if me writing this here and now is really even me planning to break the cycle, I am, by all means, burnt out.

Lately, my life has become a mess of expectations. Other people and myself keep expecting one thing to lead to another when it comes to my life and for whatever reason I’m realizing I hate that.

I think I’m coming to terms with the fact that I’m secretly a spontaneous person.

But one who also likes ruts?

Yeah, I’m confused too. But what else is new?

So, yeah. I’m burned out on writing blogs. I’m struggling to find the means to get even 250 words down right now.

Part of it is a lack of subject matter that isn’t complaining. I want blogs to be anecdote driven with a message. That isn’t sustainable on a 3 day a week schedule.

I’m not depressed, right now at least, I’m just… stuck.

The only thing I have a lot to talk about is negative, but I don’t want to be negative. It’s a problem, but is it a reasonable one? I’m not so sure.

I’m working on it, but for now the blog feels like it’s on pause. It might come back tomorrow, it might come back in a week, or a month.

I appreciate the dedicated readers I have, and have no ill will to anyone who can’t work reading in on an inconsistent schedule. I just need to work on what I can.

Hopefully that’ll be more blogs soon.

Thanks for reading, and have a great weekend.